This blog is for writing stuff down that would otherwise fly through and out of my life. Also, so other people can see it.
I want to follow some rules strictly. Here I'm publicly listing the rules I want to hold myself to. See my post on rules within consequentialism for more detail.
Vegetarianism: I will not put animal flesh into my mouth, with the following exceptions:
- flesh from animals of the class Bivalvia
"Animal flesh" is left without definition; if the common-sense definition is called into question, I will update this text. This means that this commitment may allow me to eat something which I later will refine it to disallow me from eating; I am okay with that.
(Starting at the most salient and proceeding to the speculative.)
I am habitually analytical. It is natural for me to ask "why?". I am strongly driven to understand things in their essence, in simplest terms, and am often unsatisfied with explanations I feel are too complex or too surface-level. In other words I am driven to refactor my understanding, often in conversation with other people. My analytic nature leads to my enthusiasm for math, computer programming, literary + music criticism, science, and introspection.
I feel emotions very strongly. I cry or come close to crying pretty often, during difficult conversations or in response to art. Abstract considerations can cause strong emotion for me — for example, suffering in the world (negative) or an idea about our how we are all connected (positive).
Sometimes I will be unable to function normally because I feel so bad, even though there is no immediate cause. Other times I will spontaneously feel like everything is great. Both states last a handful of hours and end when I go to sleep.
I find I tend to speak too quickly, to say 'uh' a lot, or to mumble.
Other people's mental states have a big impact on me — for example, if two people are having an argument on the street, I will be disturbed for a while after I've passed by them. Same goes for social dynamics, even in conversations I'm not a part of. For example, I remember a conversation strangers had near me in a coffee shop in 2016, just because one of the participants said something embarrassing. If I feel that the social dynamics of a conversation are bad, it will distract me and I'll be less able to participate.